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The Lowest Season
Star Trauth-Award winning artist, lifelong activist, and published author
You can still see the stars from rock bottom.
Star Trauth
Everything feels like a plausible lie
Pain runs through my veins like fire
It covers my skin, a blanket of agony
Cloth tight, bruising my wrists
My hands go numb and tingle
I bite down
Grind my teeth to the gums
Screams escape their prison behind my lips
The only thing to escape captivity
Eyes open as I fear I may die
Sun and moon sleep before me
On my face I beg for mercy
All that remains is the tangible pain
This is the only LP that has felt like pain in my collection. Its tone renders contemplations and feelings of deep thoughts and dark places. That’s not to say I dislike it, I love it. Those thoughts and places need attention. I listen to it when I ache and when I cry. It has not only gotten me through this piece, but it has gotten me through many difficult periods.
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4 Comments
I stopped listening to The Cure in the early 90’s (a result of a friend in a too amorous relationship with a band member, and spending too much time with them personally) but I understand your intricate feelings brought forth with this song.
The piece is beautiful. Dark and writhing. I see eels.
thank you. I can understand that. Music often punctuate things for me that I cannot erase. I love that you see eels.
You are one strong and amazing woman. I’m so proud of your accomplishments even through the lowest season of your life! I pray God takes away your pain 🙏💞
Thank you, Tina. I really really appreciate that.